DL

I’ll wait through these dark times by your side at all costs, knowing that someday it’ll all be worth it and we’ll have the life we’ve always wished for. Build a home that may make a family of our own together. Whether it be just us or with animals, I do not know, but always us.

And I mean every word. Sometimes I don’t think you really believe them. After all, what is three months of my twenty-six years alive? But from the moment I met you, I wanted you forever.

It’s a feeling I can’t even fully comprehend myself. It’s a feeling within me I’ve never truly felt except maybe with my own sister. But the love I have for you is deeper in a way of wanting you as my best friend, my lover, my other half in this broken world.

Craving every aspect of you, for I love when you laugh because we say stupid shit. I love when you crawl into my bed and onto my lap. You’re at peace and asleep in minutes. I love how you stretch out your hands when you awake fully, spreading all of your fingers. The way your lips sit perfectly plump when your face is at rest. How you say my name with excitement and mumble, “You’ve missed me,” when I see you again. I love your regard for me and understanding of me beyond what you’ve been taught to believe.

You wonder how it is I knew I wanted you forever since the moment we met. And I cannot describe it. I can’t conjure the words to understand why I felt that way. Maybe it’s as simple as trusting my gut, believing my instincts to be correct that you would be mine forever.

I only doubted my mind because I didn’t believe you’d want me the same, and it was something I’ve never felt before. And you say, “How did you know the first time? What did I do?” My reply is simple: “You were just you, and I fell for you.” It’s not something I can do easily put into words, and as time goes on, the feeling only grows stronger.

So now you may ask me why? How? And I only say this: I love you deeply with everything that I am for now and always. A Coors in one hand and your hand intertwined in my other. Here’s to us indefinitely.

Yours truly,

Gia