Daddy Issues

When does it change? When healing goes to healed. Feels like yesterday I was chasing after so-called love from Daddy’s to now being a girl who’s lost her Daddy issues.

Daddy issues start from infancy, an unloved child with expectations stacked on top of them. That little boy who was never a boy could never live up to a single wish that his father expected of him.

It is as if from birth he’d always be a disappointment. A wrongdoing, a bad egg. From there he can’t fall any further down, everything in his life will be nothing but failures. The grades will never be enough, star football player can’t save him enough.

So that’s when it changes for him, he starts to see he never belonged because he was always her. Never meant to be a boy but put on the world to learn a lesson, maybe teach it to others.

From that first man touching her at thirteen, and the lack of her father her Daddy issues would bloom into full effect. It would turn into one Daddy after another. She’d look for the guidance and acceptance her father could never give her.

Somehow it’s more fucked now though because she has to perform sexual favors to these men in order to gain their knowledge. Each Daddy selfish wanting to touch a piece of her innocence because she’s young, naive and pretty.

Her real father will only grow more disappointed over time and that’ll only encourage the path to find a Daddy to provide everything she’s lost.

So a teacher’s brother, a businessman and his sex parties, a best friend’s father, a felon and a tranny chaser, a maintenance man, a school teacher and widow, a blue-collar worker, a lawyer in a hot rod, all daddies who play their part.

Each Daddy fulfilled a piece of lacking knowledge in her life. Each ruining a piece of her future by tainting her body with old hands. The draw of it all knowing how wrong and used she’d become yet chasing harder after the validation of a so-called father figure.

So where does it end? Can she heal and leave it all behind her? She’ll grow, and as she gets older, she loses her appeal to the older man the way she used to attract them. She’s no longer a helpless teenager, no longer lost, unable to see a future for herself.

She’s a career woman now, becoming educated, mending relationships, communicating through tough conversations, committed to better relationships. She is mature enough now to see her mistakes as weaknesses that men choose to exploit. But now she’s strong enough to reject them as pieces of her that will define her.

Although she may have tattooed “ Daddy Issues” on her legs as a reminder of an indefinite truth about her life, they will no longer control her future. The loss of her biological father’s love and approval will only be a faded memory in her head, and each daddy from there on out will only be a reminder of her scars.

The issues may last forever, but the daddies will always fade. Now she can see them for their faults. Condemn them for their behavior, and move on to a better…young, more age-appropriate cock.